Mosaic by Margaret Almon and Wayne Stratz of Nutmeg Designs.

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Faces of Hope

Soon-to-be social work grads!  My girl is in the pale shirt in the middle.  I personally think she's the most remarkable woman I know.  She has endured a great deal and come through it with compassion, common sense, brains, and beauty.

Everything is Connected: καρδία


I have started to pursue, slowly and deliberately, a couple of health related blogs that seem particularly relevant to me.  One of them is a yoga site, put together by a woman who suffers from lives with scoliosis.  I'm very much intrigued by the expansiveness of her approach to health, and by the yoga dimension.  After six months of near-complete immobility, I'm here to tell you that at fifty-eight one doesn't exactly bounce back!  The debilitated state in which I find myself is causing me to look carefully at whole body-mind-spirit wellness.

I went to the the very first posts on the site and began to read ~ yes, slowly and deliberately ~ about the heart chakra in the Hindu Yogic and Tantric traditions. (The chakras are believed by those who follow those traditions to be force or energy centers in the body. I know only the most minute amount of anything about this, having heard a presentation years ago by a Presbyterian pastor who had become intrigued by the chakras as an approach to health and well-being.   Which is to say, I know nothing.)

But I was dumbfounded by the synchronicity of my discovery.  The heart chakra has to do with being unhurt and unstuck.  It is the heart side of my upper body, in particular, that has been assaulted and whose muscles have been damaged.  It is the area that is most difficult to stretch physically and, often, emotionally.  It is the area that is difficult for me to envision because under the skin some parts have been removed and others re-arranged.


Everything is connected.  That's what I used to tell my high school world history students.  Everything is, although I couldn't begin to weld what's been bubbling up in myself into a polished whole, at least not yet.  Herewith, therefore, the beginning bits and pieces:

One of the first words we learned in Greek was καρδία.  Cardia.  Heart.  I think that we learned it on the first day because it's an easy example for learning a particular sort of paradigm, of verb structure, not because of any deeper, metaphorical dimension.  

Hmmm.  I suppose that if I were teaching Greek to seminary students (which is not something that I would ever do!), I might spend the entire first day on the word καρδία, and not for any reason having to do with paradigms.  I might do it because καρδία is at the core of what we are about as pastors people.

(Wouldn't that be something, if seminary education were as well integrated as that?  If Greek were not, as it is for so many of us, a hurdle to lurch across, but a spiritually formative study of language, text, and heart?)


Lent begins with the words, "Return to me with your whole heart," from the prophet Joel.    I wrote the following for lent 2009, six months after my son died:

Your whole heart, I thought? What can that mean, when your heart is not whole?

My heart is shattered.

It lies in tiny shards all over the ground.

Its jagged pieces spin into space, floating past Jupiter like lost little pilgrims.

Its dusty bits float on the oceans, bits of ash, sparkling grimly in the sunlight and filtering slowly downward, into the darkness where oddly luminescent sea creatures chart paths we can barely imagine.

One might want to turn to God again. The word metanoia slides off the tongue. It sounds graceful, and hopeful. But if God's desire is for a whole heart, if one can turn toward God only with an intact heart, then one is surely lost.


Return to me with your whole heart.  Words from the Jewish tradition.

Where your treasure is, there will your heart be.   Words from the Christian tradition.

The heart chakra.  A place for becoming unstuck and unhurt.  A concept from the Hindu tradition.


A lot to ponder. 

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Finding God in All Things

Dating God has become one of my favorite blogs over the past several months.  Written by Daniel P. Moran, O.F.M., it's always thoughtful, erudite, and challenging.

Yesterday's post begins as follows: 

"While my Jesuit friends will likely wish to claim the concept “find God in all things” as the insight of Ignatius Loyola (his community, the Society of Jesus, certainly popularized the slogan), perhaps the greatest exemplar of that slogan-in-practice was none other than St. Francis of Assisi, who, of course, was one of Ignatius’s inspirations."  

The rest is here.

Since I'm working on expanding my understanding of spirituality as interpreted and expressed by folks with whom I've had only tangential connections until recently, I thought I'd bring this post to your attention.  I have studied Francis and Clare a bit, and was introduced to Duns Scotus by an extremely Reformed seminary professor but, in this arena, I remain very much a beginner.

Although not nearly as a much a beginner as I am in certain other areas! ~ to be reflected in tomorrow's post.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Hope Is the Thing with Feathers

At some intersection of blogging paths I no longer recall, Wayne Stratz and I encountered one another.  Over time, our conversation ranged across our blogs and in person to include Ignatian spirituality, birds, and stained glass.  Wayne and his wife, Margaret Almon, collaborate in the design and creation of mosaic artwork, some of which has made its way into my home, into the hands of friends, and onto the header of this blog.

Wayne has been a pesky and dogged purveyor of the word hope, in my life and pretty much everywhere he goes.  In spite of myself and my inability to envision hope anywhere at all after my son's death, his insistence has had an effect.  And so, when I began to play around with the idea of a new blog, the word hope was foremost in my mind.

I experimented with a host of titles.  The one on which I finally settled combines what I now always think of as "Wayne's word" with my own personal identification with the Biblical Woman at the Well.  Readers of my other blog know that Mary, the Mother of Jesus, has become prominent in my prayer during this season of Lent, but that Woman at the Well continues to exert a powerful pull.

Hope is not, of course, only Wayne's word.  It does put in an appearance or two in the great religions and great literature of the world.  For those unfamiliar with the post's title,  the poem by Emily Dickinson follows at the end of this post.

The image is a photograph of a prothonotary warbler, taken by Ed Schneider.  In a post yesterday, the Jesuit John Predmore reminded us that the "imagination can be a great peacemaker in times of chaos."  When this poem came to mind this morning, I closed my eyes and remembered a prothonotary warbler resting on a slender branch arcing over one of the dikes at the Ottawa National Wildlife Refuge, the early light setting those golden feathers aflame on a morning during a May migration ~ probably thirty years ago.  And so:

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune--without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Welcome to My New Space!

As March draws to a close, so does my eighth year of blogging.  It seems that I've never been able to maintain a blog's title and focus for more than a couple of years, so perhaps it's no surprise that I'm ready for a bit of a re-design.

I wrote about some of the typical ups and downs of  midlife mothering and work in Midlife Matters, opened Search the Sea to explore the discernment processes that were leading me in new directions, found myself in Desert Year after one of our sons died of suicide, and moved on to Metanoia two years ago as part of my determined effort to rebuild and re-create in the wake of such an experience of loss and horror.

As I look back, I can see these outlines of movement along my blogging path, but the truth is that the one thing that all my blogs share in common is a complete lack of focus.  I've been writing about whatever strikes me on any given day, with no particular theme or angle to hem me in.

I think that my approach may be changing.  I have a full and rich life now as a pastor and spiritual director, and I am much concerned with matters related to those realities:  small and rural congregations and the Ignatian Spiritual Exercises.  I may explore some of that here, but I think that what I really want to do is use my free writing time to reflect on those things which beckon as newly sharpened interests:  an expanded approach to spirituality, meaning spirituality in different expressions and formats , in interfaith dimensions, and  in relationship to all kinds of health and wellness.

I think I'll cross post on occasion in both of my active blogs for awhile; we'll see where this goes.

More on the title later.